Little Mama On The Prairie

A life and weight-loss journey.

Remember Me?

Wow, the New Year came and went a little fast. I didn’t intend to take quite this long of a break from blogging. In fact, I often “write” blog posts in my mind as I’m cooking, driving, washing dishes, etc. but they never seem to make it into type. The life journey is moving along. The weight loss journey is a long journey and it feels like I’ve been in a massive uphill battle for too long. The thing is, I’m still struggling with priorities. I’m still struggling to find balance and most days, it just comes down to the needs of the family, or my boss, coming before my own. I am struggling to stay on a regular exercise schedule though I’ve been trying to squeeze it in where I can…often a late night bike ride in the basement just before heading to bed.

Other areas of my life journey have moved forward like crazy. Thanks to our wonderful church ladies Bible study group and the Beth Moore study on David, along with our small group study on “Too Busy Not to Pray” by Bill Hybels, my spiritual journey has reached a new level. I am so thankful the Lord never stops calling us into closer fellowship with Him!

I have also discovered that I am a recovering postpartum depression victim. Right around my son’s second birthday, I noticed my depression begin to leave and that’s the point when I realized how very depressed I had become. Looking back, I wish I had sought medical attention for it more than just the once (my Doc convinced me I was not depressed at the time, just needed “better coping skills”.)  but I have also become thankful for the experience because it has taught me something about grace that I never fully realized before. I have now  experienced some of the exact things I was so judgemental to others about and let me tell ya, there is nothing like experiencing something firsthand to teach you a good deal about being compassionate to others. I hope I will never look at the mother of a screaming child with anything but understanding and compassion for the rest of my life! One of these days I will post about my depression in detail because I know there are many young mothers in the throws of PPD and you are not alone!

So that’s where things are at for now. I apologize for my long hiatus. I do not know how faithfully I’ll be able to keep up with blogging this year but as the Lord brings topics to mind, I will do my best to find time to share them with you.

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I’ll be back…

Hey folks, just a note to say I’m taking a break from blogging, probably until the New Year.

I wish you all a happy and HEALTHY holiday season. Let’s all do our best to keep up with as much exercise as we’re able to cram in, and purpose to choose our foods wisely in the onslaught coming up. We don’t have to (or want to) meet back here with an additional 15 pounds in the New Year!

For anyone curious, I am still maintaining my weight, needing to find a way to make more time for exercise so it doesn’t start to creep back on me.

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Weigh-In Day

Hey friends, I still haven’t figured everything out but being on an almost fluids-only diet most of the week, thanks to the lovely sore throat that came for a visit, remembering not to just gorge on food the minute I could handle swallowing ( I was sooooo hungry) and have an exercise jam session with my kids yesterday, I did manage to get back down to 228 this week. I so wish I was confident enough to video myself exercising and the kids with me, it is that funny. Yes, me exercising looks funny AND the kids exercising is adorably funning, particularly my boys push ups. The kid already has a six pack. He just turned two. Sick.

Anyway, I’m hanging in there and hoping I can get fast enough at my new MT job that it will stop consuming every hour of every day and actually let me get other things accomplished every once in a while.

 

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Weigh-In Day

Hello? Anybody out there? Anybody?

Were you asking me the same thing last week? Notice I didn’t post?

The last couple of weeks have been riddled with illness, overly long “To-Do” lists, time away at a women’s conference and living on the brink of exhaustion. It’s been causing me to question and reevaluate some priorities in my life.

I am currently maintaining my weight in the 227-230 range from week to week. I am able to maintain it and not gain everything I just worked so hard to lose by being cautious of what I eat and trying to throw in exercise when I can. But its hard. I’d give just about anything for a heaping plate of poutine right now. Except for the gross feeling I’d have after I ate it.

I need to slow down and I am trying to find which areas of my life I can cut things out of in order to do that. Living on 5-6 hours of sleep a night and trying to cram in too much in my days has really run me down and I just cannot physically keep up with this pace.

While I am not in full-on weight loss mode right now while I figure this all out, you can bet your boots I will not be letting myself slide backwards to the weight I came from.  Uh uh. I am NOT going back there. And you don’t have to either, no matter what life throws at you, you can still make your health a priority.

Sometimes you might need to take a break from losing, but that doesn’t mean you can’t maintain. Actually, these seasons of plateau in your weight loss journey should be helping to prepare you for when you reach your weight loss goal. You can’t go back to the way you used to be or you’ll end right back where you used to be. But sometimes we all need a break, especially if your journey is going to be as long as mine and during those seasons, don’t give up, don’t go backwards, practice self-control, rest, collect yourself, and you will know when the time comes to put your all back into it.

I am still here, and I thrive on the encouragement of others, both giving and receiving, so please stop by and leave a note. I also thrive on gift giving/receiving…feel free to speak my love languages accordingly. ;)

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Weigh-In Day, Week 40

What can I say? Apparently I can maintain weight like a pro. Another week of holding steady at 229, in spite of efforts to ramp up workouts and eating well and cautiously. I’ve either got a major plateau going on or some other issue but either way, I am working on figuring a way out of this slump. I think I may have the body of a bear…it knows winter is coming so its trying to store all the fat for a long hibernation…

Talk soon!

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Weigh-in Day, Week 39

I wish I could say that I had lost 39 pounds over the past 39 weeks but I can’t. I am holding steady at my 20 pound weight loss another week though. This week that will be considered a victory considering the week began with Thanksgiving dinner and I’ve been working on rebuilding my muscles again, which weighs more than fat. I can’t believe how long it takes to build them up and how fast they shrink when you let up for a bit, even though they say you lose muscle at half the rate it takes to build it. While the temporary break was necessary the week before, my body has definitely been thanking me for getting back into exercise this week. The knee injury in particular was beginning to re-stiffen and get quite sore when I wasn’t exercising as regularly and has significantly relaxed since I started up again.

Anyway, this week I definitely need to get back into tracking my food, working on the exercise and get myself to a loss for next week’s weigh-in. This is enough weeks of holding steady already.

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Weigh-In Day, Week 38

Another week of holding steady – which I consider a miracle this week.

Please don’t give up on me folks. I haven’t given up on myself, I’ve just had to take a little break from concentrating and working as hard at this as I was, as demanded by circumstances.

I haven’t forgotten about posting a wedding dress photo…I am just waiting for there to be someone around during daylight hours to help me get into it and take the picture. Coming soon.

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Weigh-In Day, Week 37

Well, here it is a week later and I have managed not to gain or lose again. Well, that’s not entirely true, I did gain at the beginning of the week and then worked my but off the last two days to reverse the damage. Ugh. That was stupid. Not the working hard to reverse it part but the part about not working at it sooner in the week.

This was, once again, one of those weeks where it felt as though everything was stacking up against me, not allowing me the time to exercise or the will power to not give in to convenient, not-so-healthy food. I began my practicum at the end of last week, which I am loving by the way, except for the fact that to complete 5 hours a day of transcription work with small children in the house, it means getting up around the 5am-ish hour, working through naptime, and finishing up what I didn’t get done at night. While at the same time there still remains produce to be canned, a house to be taken care of, kids to be loved, observed and “dealt with” if you know what I mean. Harvest season is not yet over and weather has not been cooperative on that front. I know I will have haters for saying this but, as soon as harvest is done anyway, I can hardly wait for winter to settle in and things to slip back into a routine.

But of course with this cooler weather comes…Anniversary! Birthdays! Thanksgiving! Halloween candy (we don’t celebrate Halloween but we do enjoy the day -after candy sales)! Christmas! And with all those occasions comes FOOD!!! Have you started strategizing how to make it through the onslaught we’re about to enter with gaining back everything you’ve worked hard to lose, while still enjoying yourself? It’s a difficult one. I’m not sure I’m quite ready for it yet but I better get myself ready. I really don’t need to start right back at the beginning come March 2014.

Here’s hoping to a better week for me, and a great week for you! Thanks for stopping by my blog, if you’re reading, I’d really love to hear from you as it helps to keep me going.

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Weigh-In Day, Week 36

Holding steady with my weight this week, no loss or gain. I’m in denial right now though. I need to start tracking my food again and I just don’t want to. The undeniable truth is that summer is over, the chilly weather has set in, I’m not sweating from the moment I wake up until the moment I wake up the following morning anymore. I’m not outside every waking minute running around like a crazy person trying to accomplish more than is humanly possible during daylight hours. Well, I’m still trying to accomplish that but in a more virtual way with 5 hours of transcription work needing to be completed a day, plus photos for clients piling up and waiting to be edited, plus the usual kid/house care. But none of these things make me sweat. I have bumped up my workouts a notch this week in hopes that would help keep my metabolism moving. I think I may need to bump up some more. BUT, I also need to start being extra cautious of what I eat during the cold months. Fresh fruits and veggies I find more difficult to enjoy and I would prefer to stick to things like pot pie, mashed potatoes and cinnamon buns.

Do you have seasons that get you into more trouble than others? Recognizing this will be a huge step in helping you overcome the hurdles a particular season can bring. For me, knowing that the cold season brings with it strong cravings for creamy comfort foods and sweet hot drinks means I can make some smart plans to keep staying on track a little easier. For one, I make sure to keep the good stuff in the house (fruits, veggies etc) and keep the bad stuff out altogether or only have it around in small quantities for the occasional treat, not overdose. Did you know you can cook your potatoes in chicken stock (don’t drain it off), and some cubed low-fat cream cheese at the end and mash to make really creamy mashed potatoes that don’t have an ounce of butter or fattening cream? And they’re tasty too. If there’s one thing I can’t stand its watery bland mashed potatoes made with skim milk and a teaspoon of margarine. Gross. I’d rather give them up entirely.

Anyway, so the goal for me this week is to get back into tracking, or at the very least, being extremely aware of what I’m eating, figuring out how much more exercise my time budget can handle ( I would so LOVE to do more if I had the time), and in general, keep on keeping on.

How are you doing?

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Weigh-In Day, Week 35

Nothing big or important to report this week. Worked to stay on track. Lost 1 of the 2 pounds I gained last week. Still not giving up. Are you?

I’m thinking of trying on my wedding dress againsometime soon and taking a photo…I was looking through the wedding album with the kids and I’m pretty sure I look a tad different now than I did then. Thought it might be fun to post a before/after photo for your viewing pleasure.

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